Near the end of class, another girl impede up claiming the ugly sweater was hers. The worst part is that it is her birthday and she has to deal with all these negative emotions. The except says, “In my head I’m thinking how long till lunchtime, how long till can take the red sweater and throw over the schoolyard fence, or leave it hanging on a parking meter, or bunch it up into a little ball and toss it in the alley'( Concerns 2). This shows that she started to be more self-conscious about herself and is embarrassed to be seen in an ugly sweater.
I think this specific experience is important to the author because it is when she first realized that every year n her birthday she is one year older, but she still acts like every age she passed through. She thinks she is older, but mentally she is still that little kid she was before. It says, “l don’t know why but all of a sudden I’m feeling sick inside, like the part of me that’s three wants come out of my eyes, only I squeeze them shut tight and bite down on my teeth really hard and try to remember today when I am eleven, eleven”( Concerns 1).
This shows that she is trying not to cry because she thinks that she cannot act like a little kid anymore who cries for everything. The lesson that she learned was that even Hough she is older, she doesn’t have to grow older mentally. I think she is facing an external and internal conflict. The external conflict is that her teacher put the ugly sweater on her desk. The internal conflict is that she is embarrassed and just want to get rid of it so she can have mental peace. The overall theme of this memoir is to stand up for yourself and speak up.
When the teacher asked if it was her sweater, she should have politely said no instead of being quiet and making it seem like she was too shy to say yes. Personally, feel that it is easy for me to relate to her feelings and insecurities. I, too, had been shouted at by my teacher for something that was not my fault. When was in 2nd grade, we were taking the end of the year STAR test. My strict teacher said that if we needed to get a tissue we had to raise our hand and she will bring it over.
During the test, I sneezed loudly and I had to cover my nose. Some boy in the class looked at me and told me to get up and take a tissue. When I told him that she will get mad, he said she will not, so I did. When I went to get a tissue, my teacher shouted at me in front of the whole class. I felt so humiliated just like Concerns did when her teacher made err wear that sweater. “That’s when everything I’ve been holding in since this morning since when Mrs..
Price put the sweater on my desk, finally lets go, and all of a sudden I’m crying in front of everybody” (Concerns 2), the excerpt states. Similarly, sat back down and started to cry silently because was a little girl just like her and had not yet learned how to deal with these emotions. This connection helps me understand to the memoir better because I can sympathize with her and be able to put myself in her shoes. Relate to it because I had a very similar experience which strengthens my connection to this memoir.